translator, proofreader, editor: mio
After closing the door, Fervin placed a hand on his heart.
Irwen was his beloved wife.
After a close battle with the Principality of Verma, he eventually reached the capital where he came face to face with a woman who also stole his attention, his first love.
It was the first time he had wanted someone so desperately in his life, and it was also the first time he had tried to win another’s heart so desperately.
Although the marriage had apparently been ordered by the Emperor as a diplomatic measure, it had actually been a marriage which he had stubbornly pushed for, even after knowing that the Emperor’s younger brother, Duke Sibelom, was also pursuing her.
After much difficulty and loss, I finally had her.
So I vowed to be faithful to my marriage and did everything for her, who had actually married into a foreign country.
I showered her with splendid clothes, accessories, books, and, countless maids, so much so that even the Empress could not help but envy her.
And he thought that if she could just see his sincerity through his actions, Irwin would definitely be able to adapt well as his Duchess and, above all, be happy remaining by his side.
However, it was his mistake in judging her so hastily.
She had made biting remarks, even during the process in which they were preparing for the wedding.
On their first night together, the amount of swear words that poured out of her chattering teeth that were aimed at him were not even able to be put into words.
Above all else, Irwen’s words of saying that she would rather die than have sex with him made his heart freeze.
Seeing as his wife hated him this much, Fervin’s affection for her had to be sealed to one side.
Now he thought that his feelings for Irwen had already been solely bound properly against a cold ice wall.
However, his heart had suddenly started beating again some time ago when it had clearly already cooled down.
Ever since Irwen woke up from fainting, ever since she started treating him kindly, his heart had been racing uncontrollably fast.
So he was more and more confused.
Whether or not Irwen had been acting in order to deceive him, with such a thought in his mind, he suddenly barged into her room in order to find out.
Although the bar that locked his feelings for her away in his heart was already free, he still stubbornly tried to find his rationality.
No matter how much he thought over it, he still didn’t know why she had become so warm after showing nothing but hatred for four years, so in the end, he wondered whether or not she had devised a new ruse in order to give birth to an heir and solidify her position.
It was like that, since he knew that people wouldn’t change so easily.
It was because he was also like that as well, he whose heart fluttered when he fell in love with her at first sight.
However, I had clearly come in order to make an agreement with her, so I had to calm down and face her properly, but…
Irwen’s blue eyes that were soaked with tears shimmered in front of me.
It was clear that his wife, who was as cold as ice, had changed.
You’re saying, you’re able to shed tears?
Tears as translucent as amethyst fell from the eyes of that venomous woman whose blood wouldn’t spill, even if she was pricked with a thousand needles.
Did you really repent?
Those glassy blue eyes which always looked at me with such a spiteful gaze, were full of sorrow and chagrin as they stared at me today.
It was the first time I had felt so flustered.
So I had spat out more venomous remarks, and treated her even more harshly.
Even though that wasn’t what I had really meant.
Fervin sighed frustratingly and looked back again.
From afar, Mrs Tilly drew nearer to him with hurried steps.
“Did you deliver the dress to madam properly?”
To Fervin, who turned his head without answering, Mrs Tilly gave him advice whilst clicking her tongue.
“You shouldn’t have just handed her the dress, you should have said something to her as well. That’s a pretty dress, or something like that, just everyday conversation or small talk.”
“Do I look like I’m in that situation right now, Mrs Tilly?”
“Master, you should at least give it a go, it’s so obvious that madam is putting in a lot of effort…”
Mrs Tilly’s voice grew smaller and smaller.
Mrs Tilly, who only remained taciturn in front of Irwen because of her attitude which had changed into one that was so kind.
But on the inside, she was very happy with her change.
After observing Irwen for the past few days, she gave a prayer of thanks to God since it seemed as if the result of her constant praying was finally showing.
For four years, she had prayed earnestly for Irwen, the venomous princess of a foreign country, to possess a good heart through the grace of God, and Irwen had exhibited that in the past few days.
Not only did she no longer speak spitefully, but she would also be concerned when the servants sniffed and wonder if they had caught a cold.
And above all, her complexion had changed.
Her complexion, which had been malevolent, as if she emitted cold air, had returned to a face with a healthy complexion.
When she finally mustered up the courage to look at Irwen’s face, which she had never looked at before due to her fear of her, Mrs Tilly was startled to say the least.
Throughout the Principality of Verma and even spreading to Theresia, the rumours of her appearance were well founded, for her face was truly beautiful.
In particular, her face, which was devoid of malice, truly made others feel awe.
The servants who had been afraid of her were all obsessed with her changed appearance.
“I always knew that madam was beautiful, but I think she’s become even more beautiful these days.”
“I didn’t know since I was so scared of her before, but those eyes of hers are really pretty. They’re like a clear lake reflected in the dawn sunlight.”
“It’s as if she’s been reborn.”
Mrs Tilly was deep in thought when Fervin asked in a covert voice.
“Mrs Tilly, I just have one question. What does it usually mean when a woman cries? Other than crying out of sadness, I mean.”
“Uh… Although I usually only cry because I’m sad… But that’s not just limited to women… Why, did madam cry? Then I’ll have to go inside quickly.”
Mrs Tilly shot him a bewildered look.
To Fervin Carlisle, Irwen was the first and only woman to enter his world.
Irwen, his only woman and wife, who had shown him nothing but her anger.
That’s why her crying this time made Fervin extremely flustered.
‘I’m flustered by Irwen’s crying? Why am I like this?’
When Mrs Tilly rushed inside, Fervin gently put his ear against the door.
There was no sound of a woman crying inside.
That’s a relief.
…That’s a relief?
I’m in a really bizarre state today.
Fervin thought that he’d better calm his frazzled state of mind down with swordsmanship and walked off with a quick pace.
The one to blame for his constantly fidgety movements and lip biting was Irwen, who kept shimmering before his eyes.
[ / / / ]
The day of the cultural festival finally arrived.
With guests arriving at the grand banquet hall one after another.
I put on a pure white dress and warmed up my throat in the grand banquet room.
“Your throat is in great shape, ma’am. And the pitch is so accurate.”
The pianist who would be playing the accompaniment in the grand banquet room looked up at me with admiration over and over again.
I shrugged my shoulders shyly.
“Do you really think it’s alright? It won’t be embarrassing for it to be performed in front of other people?”
“You’ve shown such excellent skill since the beginning, and you’ve been practicing this song with me for two weeks already. When effort is added to talent, it can’t be more wonderful than this, ma’am.”
Marianne, who was watching from the side, enthusiastically chimed in as well.
“I heard that originally, people who are good at something are often more anxious, but madam, you’ll definitely do well!”
“Thank you, everyone.”
I pushed aside the anxiousness I felt being on stage and ran through today’s schedule once again.
The song I would sing at the cultural festival held today at the Carlisle mansion would be ‘Can’t help but cling onto you who left’.
It was a song that I had enjoyed singing in my past life, except I had tweaked the lyrics into a new version of the song.
I planned to emphasise the phrase ‘Please, just give me one chance, please forgive me’ from the lyrics when I sang.
tl/n: crying, the cringe is too much hALSDKFJDS
Although it may have been childish, I was determined to convey my sincerity to Fervin through the song.
And this was all thanks to the advice I had received from Mrs Tilly.
“Master takes a special liking to songs. Whenever he goes to a banquet, he’ll always listen closely to the minstrels’ singing. Of course, I’ve never heard him sing. He has a nice voice so I’m sure he would sound very dashing.”
That’s right, today’s song will soften Fervin’s heart.
I’m even singing a song this time, so there’s no way you’ll hate this too, right?
Alright, let’s slowly pick up the pieces of this relationship.
At the very least, let’s hope he doesn’t hate me, so I won’t provoke his hatred later.
After practicing my singing for a while, Mrs Tilly rushed in.
Initially, I was excited about the event being held at the mansion today, but now, I was somehow full of worry for some reason.
“His Majesty, the Emperor, and Her Majesty, the Empress, and even the one who wasn’t on the list… His Grace, Duke Sibelom, has arrived.”
“I’ll be right down.”
I clenched my fists as I looked at myself in the mirror.
Today is the first day I’ll introduce the reborn Irwen to the world.
In the meantime, since I’ve only remained in the Carlisle mansion and not interacting with the people of the Theresia Empire at all, everyone must be looking at me closely today.
With this performance I’m going to show you today, I’ll make it clear that Irwen is actually a talented and versatile lady.
And I’ll have to touch everyone when I dedicate the song to Duke Carlisle as a heartfelt apology.
That’s right, I’ll definitely change my image.
A cultured lady who sings moving songs instead of a wicked wife whose tongue is like a thorn.
Just as I was about to walk off in a hurry, Mrs Tilly hurriedly stopped me.
“Madam, please wait a moment. Master said that he would come up here earlier.”
Seeing Mrs Tilly staring at the door anxiously, I shook my head as if it was impossible.
“There’s no way he would escort me, Mrs Tilly. He hates me so much…”
“There’s no way the master would hate you, madam. That’s too much of an assumption, madam.”
“Although it was the first cultural festival that would be held at the residence of Duke Carlisle, I was the one who deferred this duty to the other ladies during that time, so it can’t be helped if Fervin hates me. However, I’ll definitely do a good job starting from today anyways.”
It was when I was about to turn open the doorknob.
The doorknob swung open from the outside.
Fervin, who was one head taller than me, was looking down at me casually.
He was wearing a luxurious navy blue uniform and his platinum blond hair fluttered naturally down to his neck.
His face that only looked at me, no matter which way I looked at it, was always beautiful.
I clenched my teeth at his unrealistic proportions that seemed to pop out of a painting.
He just looked at me without saying a word.
I wasn’t sure whether he had been listening since earlier, or if he had just arrived.
But there was a light blush on the face of him who looked at me.
His green eyes that were looking at me were shaking strangely.
“I hate you? You’re still thinking as you like, Irwen.”
“I’ll withdraw for now.”
“Let’s go together, Mrs Tilly…”
As Mrs Tilly hurried out, as if someone was going to eat her, Fervin suddenly locked the door.
“Why’d you lock it?”
“Well, I wonder why I locked it?”
Fervin murmured as he quietly approached me.
His gaze was firmly fixed on me.
just be honest and say you want to be alone with her, fervin.
god the cringe whilst translating this chapter was real hALSDFKSJDFDF plus the author’s note hASDLFKJSDF
ugh also we get fervin’s pov! ofc the romantic in me swooned over the backstory gn, here we are thinking that this marriage is forced onto him since that’s what the transmigrated fl thinks from the book, but HE’S actually the one that pushed ahead with the marriage despite irwen already having a pursuer alr! also the fact that that love rival will also be at the banquet means CONFRONTATION YESSSSSS
“and that was all thanks to mrs tilly.”
gn someone fire mrs tilly rq bc hELP IM PASSING AWAY AT THIS IDEA GN THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME RN i legitimately had to take several walks to finish this chapter bc i physically could not bring myself to tl it.
ugh the title of the song is alr making me curl up but the lyrics,,, GIRL
‘please, just give me one chance, please forgive me’
BYEEEE if someone sang that to me i think i’d get the ick and do a kdrama cup of water throw hASLDFKJFDSJ like irwen honey, you should’ve just left the lyrics alone, you’re lucky i’m not fervin bc if i was you’d be getting a divorce straight away, who cares abt diplomatic affairs, my mental stability is at risk hASDLFKJSDFJ
slandering irwen but i still love her, serenade ur mans ig go girlboss! /hj
also dw if u didn’t cringe this chapter, this is only the prologue after all, the cringe gets worse next chapter guys, the title is literally ‘a love song for my husband’,,,,
kill me now