IBOMLEW Ch 4 — A Husband Who’s Shaken By His Wife’s Transformation (1)

His tone was one that was obviously overbearing, so why did his expression seem to be faltering so perilously?

The way he clung to me was as if he was longing for me. 

Although I was only shaken by him for a moment, I still wasn’t able to talk in this state. 

I felt as if I could finally understand why all the women of the empire were attracted to him.

Due to our closeness, it felt as if his body was pulling me towards him, as if he was seducing me.

“I can’t talk in this state anymore. Let’s talk properly after I get up.”

“I won’t let you go until I hear the truth.”

“I just told the truth though.”

“I’m still unaware of what you really think, Irwen.”

This guy, seriously.

I glared at Fervin as hard as I could from underneath him, and pushed myself away, shoving the body underneath his uniform with as much force as I could muster.

It only took a moment for that disheveled uniform to become a mess. 

Of course, my position, my body, was no longer uncomfortable. 

Despite the large and slender shadow that was clearly cast over my body, I didn’t feel as if there was any pressure on my chest that was moving up and down. 

He was trying not to hurt me. 

It’s just that I wasn’t allowed to leave his embrace.

A strong scent from his body enveloped us. 

I could clearly feel all of the solid body underneath the uniform he was wearing.

The tense arms that imprisoned me, and the body that seemed to possess firm muscles too. 

I diligently tried to stop my face from turning red.

Fervin saw me in that sort of state and whispered in my ear.

“I’ll say it again. If you’re just playing your shallow tricks again, then you’d better stop now.”

translator, editor, proofreader: mio


His tone was one that was obviously overbearing, so why did his expression seem to be faltering so perilously?

The way he clung to me was as if he was longing for me. 

Although I was only shaken by him for a moment, I still wasn’t able to talk in this state. 

I felt as if I could finally understand why all the women of the empire were attracted to him.

Due to our closeness, it felt as if his body was pulling me towards him, as if he was seducing me.

“I can’t talk in this state anymore. Let’s talk properly after I get up.”

“I won’t let you go until I hear the truth.”

“I just told the truth though.”

“I’m still unaware of what you really think, Irwen.”

This guy, seriously.

I glared at Fervin as hard as I could from underneath him, and pushed myself away, shoving the body underneath his uniform with as much force as I could muster.

It only took a moment for that disheveled uniform to become a mess. 

Of course, my position, my body, was no longer uncomfortable. 

Despite the large and slender shadow that was clearly cast over my body, I didn’t feel as if there was any pressure on my chest that was moving up and down. 

He was trying not to hurt me. 

It’s just that I wasn’t allowed to leave his embrace.

A strong scent from his body enveloped us. 

I could clearly feel all of the solid body underneath the uniform he was wearing.

The tense arms that imprisoned me, and the body that seemed to possess firm muscles too. 

I diligently tried to stop my face from turning red.

Fervin saw me in that sort of state and whispered in my ear.

“I’ll say it again. If you’re just playing your shallow tricks again, then you’d better stop now.”

“I’m not playing any tricks. You’ve just misunderstood my sincerity in reflecting on the past and repentance.”

“Reflected on the past and repented… So what have you finally understood?”

“As I’ve been telling you over and over again, fulfilling all of the duchess’ duties and completing this contractual marriage safely…”

Fervin snorted once he heard my words.

“That’s not hard to say, Irwen. You could’ve just been honest with me and said that you wanted to trick me into letting you give birth to the Carlisle Duchy’s heir by saying you wanted to get along with me. So, who made such a suggestion to you? Is that why you changed to such an approach?”

“Wh… What?”

“Since you’ll be able to consolidate your position through a child who has both the blood of Verma and Theresia if you have a good relationship with me. However, I don’t believe it at all, this sudden change of yours I mean.”

“It’s not like that…”

“All you’ve shown me thus far was a ridiculous attitude, and now you think I’ll look favourably on you if you come at me in such a humble manner? Did you think it would be that easy to trick me into giving you my child?”

“I…”

To think of such an absurd thing, seriously, this man! 

Tears suddenly welled up in my eyes

This situation was just pissing me off. 

Of all things, I was resentful of the fact that I had possessed Irwen who was such an evil wife, as well as this situation in which my effort to change went unacknowledged by Fervin.

Of course, I was also aware that my situation might not turn out as I wish. 

During the four years of marriage, she criticises the servants, sends back the specialties of the Carlisle Dukedom which she was told not to send back to the Principality of Verma and also hurled abusive and spiteful remarks at her husband, so he must’ve gotten sick of it already.

Of course he’d doubt his wife, who has suddenly changed.

Still, I felt resentful towards him for not believing the effort I had put in over the course of several weeks.

Furthermore, I felt bitter at the fact that I had entered the body of Irwen Lillias rather than the body of the female lead, Stella. If I had entered her body instead, I wouldn’t have to constantly face those cold eyes.

Tears welled up involuntarily in my eyes when I met his chilly gaze. 

These tears weren’t of sadness, but rather tears of resent and anger.

As I tried to hold back my tears and refrain from sobbing, Fervin hurriedly lifted me from my position.

It was him who looked at me with a hint of fluster.

“Are you crying?”

“Can I not even cry when I want to now? Are you going to doubt this too?”

“It’s not that…”

Just as he raised his elegant finger to wipe the tears from my eyes. 

Before I knew it, my eyes were covered with tears. 

I could feel the tears trickling down my cheeks.

Since you lose if you cry, I thought that I should stop these embarrassing tears of frustration first.

However, I didn’t know how to stop my tears from coming out.

I wiped my tears with the blue handkerchief that Fervin who was next to me had handed to me, but once they burst, the tears showed no signs of stopping.

His sharp eyes stared down at me. 

He cleared his throat and struggled to keep his composure.

“Don’t cry. Crying won’t change anything.”

“I’m not crying, it’s just that there are tears flowing from my eyes.”

His shoulders shook as he wiped my tears away with his wet handkerchief, then wiped them away again.

The large handkerchief was already drenched.

I was originally the type who cried more when they were told not to cry.

Fervin stared at me, biting his lip,  then suddenly reached a hand out.

He took my hand, then lowered it.

I glared at him as I cried, out of breath.

“What are you doing? Are you saying you don’t want to see me cry anymore? Isn’t that your type?

Then, Fervin placed his hand on my face. 

He wiped the tears from both of my cheeks. 

Cupping my cheeks with four slim fingers, he wiped my eyes with his thumb. 

Silence came with his sudden action. 

Fervin blinked, as if he also didn’t expect himself to do such a thing.

It was gentle beyond measure, as if it was an action done between lovers.

The tears that were clinging to my eyelashes dripped onto his fingers.

The long and elegant fingers trembled. 

Fervin’s deep green eyes met mine.

The moment he stared intently into my trembling eyes. 

He seemed to have come to his senses. 

He hurriedly got off the bed. 

After staring at the window where the warm sunlight entered from for a moment, he suddenly turned to me. 

He covered his face with both hands as if he were confused, then clenched his teeth.

“If I’m misunderstanding, then make it clear here, Irwen. What’s the point in tiring me out and making it so hard on me for four years, then suddenly changing now?”

“I’m fully aware of how hard of a time I’ve been giving you and how I haven’t fulfilled my official duties as the Duchess of Carlisle. Our marriage is officially recognised by the Emperor for five years. For the rest of the year, I’ll faithfully do my duties as a duchess, so please give me a chance to make up for my mistakes so far.”

“Then the child…”

Before he could come to his own conclusions, I answered hastily.

“I’ve never thought of having a child before, not even once. It will continue to be that way in the future, so don’t worry about that.”

“Not even once… Not even once, never thought…”

For some reason, he seemed to be grinding his teeth.

“Although you were forced to marry me under His Majesty’s orders, fortunately, you can get a divorce after this year, so you’ll be able to have a beloved child with a woman you like. Or you could think of another way. I’ll respect your wishes. Instead, I’ll fulfill my duties as your wife for a year and give you a divorce, so please respect my wishes as well.”

“…”

Fervin quickly turned around. 

He strode towards the door. 

I thought he was going to grab the doorknob and leave, but he suddenly turned tow3ards me.

His green eyes were thick with emotion.

“Your wishes, I’ll respect it. I can’t guarantee how long it’ll be for though.”

Thud. 

As soon as Fervin opened the door and left, I let out a tense breath, exhaling. 

That man was no ordinary human. 

As expected of the Emperor’s right hand man, it’s not easy to dispel his doubts.

It seemed that the future was not going to be a smooth journey. 

Even if I couldn’t get him to look upon me favourably, I still have to do my best to fulfil my duties and earn his trust.

Because that’s the only way I’ll survive here. 

Sigh… What sort of sin did I commit for me to enter the body of Irwen Lillias?

I buried my relaxed face in the blanket.


gn short chap but litrally had no other motivation except that one of my friends read this hASLDFKJFSDJSD

also i can understand fl’s resentment at the fact that she put so much effort in but due to the situation the previous body put her in, it’s all for nothing bc ml doesn’t believe her, BUT ALSO mf it’s ur several weeks of effort compared to his four years of torture ASDLFIKJFSDJ LIKE mf she put him through four years of shit don’t think it’s gonna go away that quick hasdlfkjfsdj understandably ml probably gave her so many chances to change during those four years but mans kept getting played asdlfkjfdsjsd

IBOMLEW Ch 3 — Weren’t You Prepared For This? (2)

The preparations for the cultural festival that would be held in three days were almost complete. 

I also sent invitations to various noble households, but fortunately, everyone said they were willing to come. 

And even the Emperor and Empress had said that they would attend, so what could be better than this! 

I will show the whole world that Irwen Carlisle is an amiable person, not a malicious wife..

I was busy writing a thank-you letter in the room when several servants filtered in and announced something.

“Madam, we have finished setting up the stage in the banquet hall. The piano was covered with a large cloth earlier in order to prevent the dust from settling on it.”

“Alright. I’m grateful towards you all.”

Although I was only saying it because I was truly grateful, the servants were still startled and all left the room.

It seemed as if they were still not used to my changed persona.

Mrs Tilly ran in hastily.

“Madam, the dress you ordered a few days ago has arrived. Should I bring it to your room?”

“Yes, then please do so.”

“Then, please wait for me in your undergarments. You’ll be able to try it on soon. I’ll fix it for you right away if it happens to be too tight or too loose.”

“Thank you, Mrs Tilly.”

“…I should be more thankful, madam.”

Although I think I’ve already said the words ‘thank you’ more than 300 times so far, it seems like Mrs Tilly still isn’t used to it. 

Mrs Tilly bowed her head as if she was bewildered, easily helping me take off my dress and left. 


The preparations for the cultural festival that would be held in three days were almost complete. 

I also sent invitations to various noble households, but fortunately, everyone said they were willing to come. 

And even the Emperor and Empress had said that they would attend, so what could be better than this! 

I will show the whole world that Irwen Carlisle is an amiable person, not a malicious wife..

I was busy writing a thank-you letter in the room when several servants filtered in and announced something.

“Madam, we have finished setting up the stage in the banquet hall. The piano was covered with a large cloth earlier in order to prevent the dust from settling on it.”

“Alright. I’m grateful towards you all.”

Although I was only saying it because I was truly grateful, the servants were still startled and all left the room.

It seemed as if they were still not used to my changed persona.

Mrs Tilly ran in hastily.

“Madam, the dress you ordered a few days ago has arrived. Should I bring it to your room?”

“Yes, then please do so.”

“Then, please wait for me in your undergarments. You’ll be able to try it on soon. I’ll fix it for you right away if it happens to be too tight or too loose.”

“Thank you, Mrs Tilly.”

“…I should be more thankful, madam.”

Although I think I’ve already said the words ‘thank you’ more than 300 times so far, it seems like Mrs Tilly still isn’t used to it. 

Mrs Tilly bowed her head as if she was bewildered, easily helping me take off my dress and left. 

As soon as she left, I began to take off my clothes. 

I had already gotten used to waiting to be served without any clothes on.

Before I knew it, there was only a white camisole remaining on my body.

I looked at myself in front of the large mirror with my back to the door. 

Although it’s embarrassing to say, I’ll never get tired of seeing my reflection, no matter how many times I do it. 

This beauty with white skin that contrasted even more with her wavy black hair that stretched to her waist. 

A perfect figure that had curves in all the right places.

It’s absolutely perfect. 

As I was mesmerised by my reflection in the mirror, someone knocked on the door. 

“Come in.” I said without taking my eyes off the mirror.

Creak

A seemingly large figure appeared in the mirror. 

The door opened as Fervin came into my room.

“Irwen.”

I turned around. 

In his hand was the simple white dress I ordered. 

Fervin had just returned from the imperial palace, wearing the same black uniform he had worn in the morning. 

My gaze moved to his pale face.

I wasn’t sure how many weeks it had been since I had seen his face.

His face, which I had not seen in a long time, had become even more handsome. 

His cheeks that were slightly sharper, a tall nose, and his even more piercing green eyes. 

He stared blankly at my attire. No, rather he was probably just looking at my bare skin that was exposed in the thin camisole.

His gaze slowly descended downwards, from my face to my neckline, collarbone, then breasts. 

I was so flustered that I didn’t even realize that his own face was gradually turning redder and he was even coughing slightly. 

I hurriedly covered my body with both arms and pointed towards the door with my chin.

“Isn’t it impolite for you to come in before I’m appropriately dressed?”

“As your husband, I think it’s alright for me to break this level of courtesy.”

“Even if you’re my husband, etiquette is still etiquette regardless.”

“Since Mrs Tilly is always by your side, this was the only time for us to be alone. I can’t grab you whilst you’re sleeping and talk to you either.”

I had no choice but to agree with Fervin’s words. 

After waking up, it’s true that Mrs Tilly was always by my side whilst I was still getting used to and learning about the mansion’s various duties. 

Fervin licked his red lips as he nodded, as if to continue speaking.

“It’s been years since the Carlisle Dukedom was thrown into a frenzy due to an event. However, there’s something I’m curious about.”

He draped the white dress he was holding over the chair next to the dressing table.

He placed his hand on the chair and ran a hand through the hair that was falling onto his forehead. 

The only colour on his pale face was on his lips which were red as if he had bitten an apple.

With his tall body which was over 180 centimeters leaning on the chair, he turned his head to the window. 

As the setting sun fell languidly on his face, it was as if color had returned to his sculpted face. 

Truly, a masterpiece is a masterpiece. 

In the original story, he wasn’t called the most handsome man in the empire for nothing. 

Being alone in a room with him was so nerve wracking that I felt like dying, but the moment I set my eyes on his handsome face, I found that I couldn’t take my eyes off him. 

He, who was constantly biting his lip. 

As if it was stuffy, he neatly unbuttoned the button that had been covering his neck. 

The wind revealed his collarbone, which was trembling due to his intense emotions.

“What the hell are you…”

After licking his lips for a moment, Fervin came one step closer to me. 

I unconsciously gulped, my throat dry.

“Irwen, why are you doing something you don’t normally do? Is this because you want to get along with me?”

“I’m not, getting along with you, rather than that kind of nonsense…”

“That kind of nonsense?”

He suddenly fixed his piercing eyes on me, as if he was angry.

Before I could properly grasp the situation, he intercepted my words before I could speak.

“I just don’t know why you are doing this. There was simply no need for you to host the cultural festival. I could just push it onto the Marchioness of Celestine like before…”

“I said that I would fulfil my official duties as the Duchess. I’m just upholding my own responsibilities, so I’m not sure why you’re talking like this. By any chance, did you perhaps prefer for me to go back to the old days, not working and just acting like an idiot? You have extremely weird tastes.”

After speaking so confidently, I slowly stepped backwards.

I saw Fervin wipe his face, as if he was shocked by my words. 

I thought that it would be safe for me to hide myself in the bed with a large veil, so I quickly took a step back. 

As I quickly backed away to avoid him approaching me, suddenly, my leg was caught on the edge of the bed. 

At the same time, as Fervin reached out towards me as I fell backwards, my field of view was suddenly reversed in an instant.

“Ah!”

The moment I collapsed with my back on a cozy bed. 

A large shadow was cast over my body as Fervin reached out towards me.

I could feel a man’s warmth and weight on my body. 

His face suddenly came closer to mine. 

His gaze flickered as if wandering, and then  met my eyes, as if he had made a decision.

“I think you’ve misunderstood. I don’t have weird preferences.”

“You like heavy makeup more than a bare face, I told you I was going to fulfill my duties as a Duchess but you told me not to. And get up, you’re heavy.”

Fervin got up as soon as I gently pushed his chest. 

Although it wasn’t as if he was was putting pressure on my body, it was still a posture that used both his arms and legs to cage me in.

When I looked at him with a gaze that seemed to ask why he was doing this, his eyes shook wildly.

“If I don’t do this, you’ll avoid me, just like before.”

Seeing as his own face was burning red, it seemed as if he had unconsciously said it without meaning to.

The waves lurched, as if a stone had been thrown into a still pond. 

Why are you making that sort of face, you hate me anyways. 

I swallowed my trembling voice and responded calmly.

“Well, I don’t have any expectations, so I don’t think it’ll be a problem if I avoid you.”

He let out a heavy sigh.

“You really don’t know anything. It’s troublesome, to I think that I’ve been hiding my heart yet you have no expectations.”

“That’s why I’m going to live up to your expectations. I have no idea why you’re dissatisfied with how I’ve acted as the Duchess.”

“You really don’t know me. Do you really not know what I expect from you?”

His eyes that seemed to say, ‘Of course you wouldn’t know’, stared into mine fiercely as he let out a languid breath.

At that moment, he buried his lips deeply into my neck. 

As if he was biting an apple he rubbed his lips against my neck, then slowly raised his face. 

For a moment, I almost fell for him as he looked seductively at me with his sculpted face. I frowned, grabbing his collar and meeting his eyes.

I could see that the neat uniform that was wrinkled from my grasp.

“Why are you doing this all of a sudden?”

Fervin, who was staring at me. 

An enchanting scent grazed his nose as he lowered his head.

As I met those green eyes that were staring at me, my heart started to pound even more uncontrollably. 

As my gaze descended from his eyes to his lips, a low and deep voice suddenly came out.

“You’re fulfilling the official duties of the Duchess. Wasn’t this what you were ultimately trying to achieve under the pretext of your duties?”


mio’s crisis today: fervin being too damn fine in the official art :sob:

discord link to celebrate the end of my hibernation lmaoooo

https://discord.gg/jr8B2UPPEk

IBOMLEW Ch 3 — Weren’t You Prepared For This? (1)

In the following days, I sent news to Marquis Celestine, who was going to hold the cultural festival on my behalf, that I would be holding the festival this time.

Marianne, who had delivered my letter to her herself, had said that she had asked her if what she had delivered was really true, almost ten times.

Marianne’s face, which conveyed her response, was flushed to the core.

“Everyone is very interested in madam’s sudden transformation. It’s not a bad feeling, rather, is this the feeling of having everyone’s innocent curiosity?”

“But they don’t have to be curious to that extent, it’s burdensome.”

“All of high society already has their eyes on you, madam.”

As expected, my sudden change had become a point of interest within high society.

Everyone must have become curious after hearing that the Duchess, who only hid within the mansion and had never made an appearance, was finally involving herself in social affairs.

And whether or not it was because the servants in our mansion were aware of my sudden change and had spread rumours, numerous party invitations from aristocrats I wasn’t familiar with came flying in.

It seemed that my reputation outside was gradually rising, not to mention the good response of the servants in the mansion.

I was suddenly curious about what Fervin thought about my sudden change.

Has my change elicited a positive response from him? Does he see me in a more positive light now?

However, in order to see his response, we had to meet each other first.

I was completely unable to see Fervin at home.

As the Emperor’s right-hand man, he was always called to the palace when something important came up, and after the last dinner I had with him, he did not even have his dinner at home.

Even though I took a lot of afternoon naps, I would always open my eyes to find myself in my bed, even if I dozed off in front of the porch, trying to wait for him.

Last night, although I squatted down on the stairs in front of the front door and waited for him until late into the night, I eventually fell asleep without even seeing him.

In the cozy bed, as soon as I opened my eyes in the late morning, only a sigh of ‘I failed again’ came out of my mouth.

“Madam, please stop waiting at the front door all night. It isn’t good for your body.”

Mrs Tilly, who comes to wake me up as soon as its morning, says this every time.

Under her care, I started to busily prepare to get up and asked her.

“How is his mood these days? Does it seem as if he still hates me?”


In the following days, I sent news to Marchioness Celestine, who was going to hold the cultural festival on my behalf, that I would be holding the festival this time.

Marianne, who had delivered my letter to her herself, had said that she had asked her if what she had delivered was really true, almost ten times.

Marianne’s face, which conveyed her response, was flushed to the core.

“Everyone is very interested in madam’s sudden transformation. It’s not a bad feeling, rather, is this the feeling of having everyone’s innocent curiosity?”

“But they don’t have to be curious to that extent, it’s burdensome.”

“All of high society already has their eyes on you, madam.”

As expected, my sudden change had become a point of interest within high society.

Everyone must have become curious after hearing that the Duchess, who only hid within the mansion and had never made an appearance, was finally involving herself in social affairs.

And whether or not it was because the servants in our mansion were aware of my sudden change and had spread rumours, numerous party invitations from aristocrats I wasn’t familiar with came flying in.

It seemed that my reputation outside was gradually rising, not to mention the good response of the servants in the mansion.

I was suddenly curious about what Fervin thought about my sudden change.

Has my change elicited a positive response from him? Does he see me in a more positive light now?

However, in order to see his response, we had to meet each other first.

I was completely unable to see Fervin at home.

As the Emperor’s right-hand man, he was always called to the palace when something important came up, and after the last dinner I had with him, he did not even have his dinner at home.

Even though I took a lot of afternoon naps, I would always open my eyes to find myself in my bed, even if I dozed off in front of the porch, trying to wait for him.

Last night, although I squatted down on the stairs in front of the front door and waited for him until late into the night, I eventually fell asleep without even seeing him.

In the cozy bed, as soon as I opened my eyes in the late morning, only a sigh of ‘I failed again’ came out of my mouth.

“Madam, please stop waiting at the front door all night. It isn’t good for your body.”

Mrs Tilly, who comes to wake me up as soon as its morning, says this every time.

Under her care, I started to busily prepare to get up and asked her.

“How is his mood these days? Does it seem as if he still hates me?”

Mrs. Tilly’s lip curled with a strange expression on her face.

As if her head was filled with words she wanted to say, all kinds of expressions flashed across her face.

Thus, she carefully spoke up.

“I think…he said to stop trying since it would all be in vain…”

I bit my lip when I heard what Mrs Tilly reported, acting as if it was a shame.

“Looks like I’ll have to try harder.”

“Madam, in my opinion, it’ll still work out, even if we don’t use this sort of method. I’m sure the master has already… “

As soon as her eyes met mine, Mrs Tilly gasped and closed her mouth.

Although she had an expression that looked as if she was trying to swallow the words she wanted to say, as if she had just received an order from someone, she did not seem to have any intention of revealing it.

But I guess I can still ask a few leading questions. 1

“I understand. Well, then please let him know that I won’t linger around in front of him anymore. He won’t see me around him like before.”

“I don’t think that’s what he meant, madam.”

“He told me to stop trying since it would all be in vain.”

Mrs Tilly’s face seemed to get paler and paler the more she heard my words.

In the end, she brought up another subject, as if she couldn’t win.

“Since he’ll be coming back late all week this week, it’ll be no use, no matter how long you wait for him.”

“Then, it seems like all my hard work thus far was of no use.”

“Madam, do you really not know the reason why you’re able to fall asleep outside, then wake up in your bed the next morning?”

Mrs. Tilly interrupted me like she was frustrated, when I replied, “The butler, Alfred, must have moved me.”

“It was the master who held madam in his arms and put you in bed every time. He said that madam couldn’t be left on the cold floor for too long, and couldn’t leave madam in the hands of other people, even if he always got off work late at night.”

The unexpected report that I never could have thought to be true made me suspicious and wonder whether Mrs Tilly was lying or not.

But it didn’t seem as if Mrs Tilly, who was looking at me with such a clear conscience, was lying.

Even if it was true, it was truly strange.

In the first place, didn’t Fervin hate me?

You didn’t want to get involved with me, did you?

Then why are you treating me like this behind my back?

[ / / / ]

The luxurious Imperial Palace.

Fervin and the Emperor, who were busy handling various documents on the marble table, sat face to face.

The Emperor, who was supporting his chin with his hand and staring at him, made a snapping sound with his fingers.

Pervin didn’t pay him any attention and kept playing with his quill pen.

In the end, the Emperor was the first to open his mouth and speak.

“I heard that there’s been an interesting rumour going around recently. It’s the first time that the Duchess of Carlisle’s name has been heard so much within high society. Did you know about it?”

“Since they’ve already made such an uproar about it, is it possible for me not to know?”

Fervin recalled the countless times people had been talking behind their backs over the past few days.

Rumours of ‘Irwen’ that came from various social gatherings had long been spread throughout the Imperial Palace.

“Have you heard the news about the Duchess of Carlisle? Up until now, the cultural festival had been handed over to the Marquis of Celestine to host, but this time, the Duchess said that she’d be the one hosting the cultural festival herself this time!”

“That’s not the only thing. According to the servants working in the Duke’s residence, the Duchess’ terrible swearing has stopped, and most important of all, the harsh attitude that was akin to a stab has changed to an elegant and graceful one.”

“Although I did hear that she woke up after falling, what’s gone wrong with her head since then?”

“Rumour has it that there’s been a change in appearance as well. They say that her face itself has changed, but what sort of nonsense, what does that even mean…?”

“If it’s this sort of change, I’d gladly welcome it. I can’t wait to hurry up and attend the cultural festival the Duke of Carlisle is hosting this time. Since then, I’ll be able to see the Duchess in person with my own two eyes.”

“Above all, I’m curious about what her husband, His Highness the Duke of Carlisle, thinks of all this. When I saw him at the palace last time, although I asked him, he didn’t even say anything.”

The rumours about Irwen’s transformation always ended with the question of what her husband, the Duke of Carlisle, thought of all this.

Every time that happened, Fervin would think like this.

Why were they curious about how he felt? He himself didn’t even know what his true feelings were.

No, to be precise, he didn’t want to reveal his own true feelings that were shaking.

“Fervin. The situation regarding the Esteemed Young Lady of Verma has changed quite a bit, right? Should I call her a loving wife instead of a wicked one now? I heard that the swearing has stopped too now? And I also heard that she waits at the front door every night just for you?”

The Emperor tilted his head, full of laughter.

Fervin unconsciously fiddled with his wedding ring that was on his left ring finger.

What a strange woman.

His wife, Irwen, seems to have completely changed ever since she woke up.

Although those cherry-like lips had only uttered vicious curses in the past, now flowery words started to spill forth from them.

She, who always exuded an ugly aura and wore heavy makeup whilst shouting a ferocious “I’ll kill you if you touch me!”, was now dozing off at the front door every night.

It was always her, sitting on the stairs in front of the mansion entrance, dozing off with her mouth slightly open.

So every time, he would personally pick Irwen up and move her to her bedroom.

Somehow, unbeknownst to him, when did it become not alright for a servant to move her with their own hands?

When it got busy at work, why did he bother to ride a horse back to the mansion just to repeat the tiring act of carrying her to bed and then going back to the palace again?

Perhaps it’s because he doesn’t want others to see the way she looks when she’s dead asleep in his embrace, pouting as she chews her lips.

Or maybe it’s because he doesn’t want to show anyone her disheveled appearance and her seductive lips that open slightly whenever she lies on the bed.

Fervin’s face gradually becomes redder once he recalls Irwen’s past actions.

He didn’t know why he was acting like this.

Is this a new type of method you thought of to torment me? Or is it really… the person itself that has changed?

The Emperor who was watching him from the side, stuck out his tongue, as if he was in disbelief.

“Your expressions are changing very drastically. Seriously, it’s not like you’re a boy in love.”

Although they had been together for many years already, it was still surprising to see Fervin, who was like his own sibling, display such rarely seen behaviour.

However, it was neither a strange nor new face that he was seeing for the first time.

A few years ago, the Emperor had seen this sort of face on Fervin.

Even on the day he first met the Esteemed Young Lady of Verma, Fervin also looked as if he was at a loss like this.

Embarrassed by his own disconcertingly skinny build, the Emperor spoke lightly to him.

“I heard that the cultural festival that was going to be hosted at the residence of Marquess Celestine was going to be held at your house this time.”

“So you’ve heard.”

“That’s why…”

The Emperor spoke, acting as if what he had said was nothing important, but his eyes were fixed on him with a particularly fervent look.

“I’ve also decided to attend. Of course, the Empress will also be accompanying me.”

“Your Majesty!”

An unscheduled visit by the Emperor.

In particular, it is a great honor and courtesy for the Emperor to visit somewhere other than the Imperial Palace.

Of course, to the Emperor, who regarded Fervin as a friend who was closer to that of a brother, this situation was not beyond him.

The Emperor, who often visited the Duke of Carlisle’s residence when he was still a bachelor prince, had never frequented the residence after Fervin’s marriage.

He was worried that he might interfere with Fervin’s marriage, and upset his wife, Irwen’s, unusual temper, which he had heard so much about.

Fervin’s sharp green eyes met the Emperor’s ones which were filled with mischief.

The Emperor merely shrugged his shoulders and replied back.

“What discourtesy, I’m just curious about how that Esteemed Young Lady of Verma has changed. More specifically, isn’t this cultural festival going to be her first time organising an event herself?”

“Irwen could be discourteous. She was born and raised in a foreign country, didn’t participate in any high society events after marriage and only stayed within our mansion, so she might not have appropriate palace etiquette and may show discourtesy.”

“Well, I think I’ll be able to look forward to it. It’s standard practice to hire the best pianist, but apparently she’s also prepared the best song as well.”

“….”

Fervin had a strange expression on his face that seemed to say it was impossible.

And before long, he started to resent the fact that he knew less of this information than the Emperor.

Why didn’t Mrs Tilly tell him these things? No way, did she perhaps already swear her allegiance to Irwen?

The light in the Emperor’s eyes sparkled as he looked at Fervin, as if he were a strange being.

“Wait, don’t tell me the husband who lives in the same house as her knows less than the general public?”

“…Sorry.”

“What sorry, you should apologise to your wife instead!”

“It doesn’t seem like that. Although I’m not sure why Irwen is doing this now, she is definitely fickle.”

“Hey, Fervin! Surely that’s not it.”

The Emperor, who is a self-proclaimed expert on a woman’s feelings, proudly gives out bold advice.

“This is your wife trying to treat you better from now on and trying to reconcile with you. How fortunate is it that she’s finally settled down and not swearing and spitting venomous words out all the time? God has heard your prayers.”

“…”

The Emperor shows him a smile full of anticipation.

“Then, good luck, Fervin. Did you perhaps know? If a child with blood from both the House of Verma and House of Carlisle. It’ll be a blessing, both nationally and diplomatically. Of course our ties will be further cemented and strengthened…”

Fervin, who was quietly listening to the Emperor’s excited words, blinked silently.

He was fiddling with the wedding ring on his left hand.

Although he felt anxious, he felt complicated on the inside at the same time.

He was still contemplating over how to accept his wife’s attempt at opening his tightly locked heart wide open.


[1] 유도신문: a ‘leading question’ or ‘suggestive interrogation‘ is a question that is asked to elicit or hint to a particular answer that contains the information the interrogator is looking to have confirmed. this term is most commonly used in law systems that rely on witness testimonies.

this emperor is jokes GABSJSBS plus flustered fervin is so cute LMAOOO

IBOMLEW Ch 2 — The Reborn Duchess

Meanwhile Fervin, who had arrived at the dining room first, folded the documents in his hand and laid them aside.

He squinted his eyes at the food that didn’t come out, no matter how long he looked at the documents.

When he called the butler, Alfred, and asked what was going on, he was delivered some surprising news.

“Madam said that she would have dinner together with you. How about waiting a little longer?”

“What nonsense, why would someone who has never eaten with me…”

Before he could even find out what had happened, the dining room door was pushed wide open.

Irwen, who was dressed nicely in a fluttering red dress, came in with her long curly hair, ruffled in the air.

She lifted her head up to look at him as she sat down at the table, opposite to him with the guidance of a maid.

A pleasant and rich voice came out of her mouth.

“I wanted us to eat together. Is that alright with you?”

Instead of answering, Fervin just stared at her.

He was surprised and astounded, so stunned that it was as if someone had hit his head and given him a concussion.

She, who normally always had on thick makeup like a ghost, appeared in front of him with a bare face.

That bright smile that was on her milky white face, the one that seemed as if it was specifically meant for him, was so beautiful that it seemed to be engraved in his heart.

The bolt that had been firmly locked for the past four years wriggled wildly, as if it was trying to free itself.

‘I’m really going crazy.’


Meanwhile Fervin, who had arrived at the dining room first, folded the documents in his hand and laid them aside.

He squinted his eyes at the food that didn’t come out, no matter how long he looked at the documents.

When he called the butler, Alfred, and asked what was going on, he was delivered some surprising news.

“Madam said that she would have dinner together with you. How about waiting a little longer?”

“What nonsense, why would someone who has never eaten with me…”

Before he could even find out what had happened, the dining room door was pushed wide open.

Irwen, who was dressed nicely in a fluttering red dress, came in with her long curly hair, ruffled in the air.

She lifted her head up to look at him as she sat down at the table, opposite to him with the guidance of a maid.

A pleasant and rich voice came out of her mouth.

“I wanted us to eat together. Is that alright with you?”

Instead of answering, Fervin just stared at her.

He was surprised and astounded, so stunned that it was as if someone had hit his head and given him a concussion.

She, who normally always had on thick makeup like a ghost, appeared in front of him with a bare face.

That bright smile that was on her milky white face, the one that seemed as if it was specifically meant for him, was so beautiful that it seemed to be engraved in his heart.

The bolt that had been firmly locked for the past four years wriggled wildly, as if it was trying to free itself.

‘I’m really going crazy.’

He turned his gaze away from Irwen’s face with difficulty and buried his face in both hands.

He rubbed his eyes, as if he was tired, and quickly organised his thoughts.

The sudden change of his wife, who had no interest in him, but rather only had hatred, could only be interpreted as this.

“Are you perhaps still sick? Doctor Doppari originally said that you were fine already but…”

Irwen had a confused expression on her face in reply to Fervin’s serious question.

“I’m not sick anymore. It went away as soon as I woke up.”

“Then why aren’t you acting like before? And why aren’t you wearing any makeup?”

“I feel like the heavy makeup was bad for my skin. Why, does it look weird?”

Her candid tone without a single hint of poison aimed at him, tickled him.

Fervin stared intently at Irwen.

It was the first time he had seen Irwen’s bare face after getting married.

Irwen’s face that was normally covered with thick makeup which was worse than not wearing makeup, was so beautiful that it put him in a daze.

Irwen tilted her head slightly, as if to ask why he was looking at her like that, but he couldn’t stop looking at his own wife.

‘Was this woman…was she always…so pretty?’

He hadn’t seen her in such a long time that now, he had almost forgot her lively face.

He had never seen her bare face after their horrible first night together.

However, he had heard the conversations of the maids who helped her get dressed.

“Madam is much prettier without makeup. I really don’t know why she bothers to do such ghost-like makeup.”

That’s right, he also wasn’t sure why she was always in such atrocious makeup.

She was much prettier when she wasn’t.

Eyebrows that drooped down slightly, curving like a crescent moon, and clear glass-like skin.

Not to mention those big eyes that were currently staring at him.

Fervin shook his head violently at Irwen’s face that was shimmering right in front of him.

As the ticklish feeling in his heart that he had sealed away for years already began to rise again, he vigilantly pushed it down.

No, he didn’t know what sort of scheme that villainess had come up with to torture him.

He decided that he would no longer be lead by the nose by Irwen and made up his mind.

Fervin coughed before spitting out in a cold voice.

“Yeah, it looks weird.”

“Don’t you think my bare face looks better than that sort of heavy makeup?”

“No, I’d rather your old style of makeup.”

He spoke in a firm voice, yet he could feel his face burning due to the lie he had just spit out.

His face grew redder when he heard Irwen mumble, “Your taste is quite unique…” as if she found him absurd.

His heart, which had been firmly locked away, started to beat again.

Fervin clenched his teeth and looked away from Irwen.

He thought about whether he should leave his seat, but then decided against it.

Although the Irwen who had suddenly changed made him flustered, she also at the same time evoked his curiosity.

For several days, it had been reported that Irwen had been kind to the servants rather than hurling verbal insults toward them.

It wasn’t just Irwen’s way of speaking that had changed.

When she had appeared at dinner today, she had done so without her previous makeup which was so thick it seemed as if she was wearing a mask.

Her attitude, which had always been aggressive, had become much more docile.

She had also stopped secretly sending specialty products back to her parents in the Verma Duchy.

Everything about his wife had changed.

Whether she was acting or truthfully repentant remained yet to be dug out by Fervin, but at the same time, he was afraid.

He was afraid that his sincerity would be betrayed by her again.

However, at the same time, he had a strong desire to stay with her and see it to the end.

‘Don’t you still get excited just from looking at her face? Can you really go all the way? Won’t you fall for her first?’

He heard the voice of his conscience that was sealed deep within him, provoking him.

Fervin tried to push it down as much as possible.

[ / / / ]

Dinner passed under a heavy atmosphere.

Although I wasn’t expecting a heartwarming or lively dinner, I still wasn’t expecting a dinner so silent it stifled my breathing.

Although Fervin did not avoid my sudden attendance, he was still eating with a stiff face.

I tried to initiate conversations with him several times, but each time, Fervin simply looked at me instead of answering, and often avoided my gaze, as if he didn’t want to see me.

How was I supposed to have a conversation with someone who was avoiding me?

We just quietly cut our steaks.

Amidst the silent atmosphere that seemed to weigh down on my entire body, I wasn’t even sure whether the meat was going into my mouth or my nose.

However, Fervin, who sat across from me, was extremely pleasing to the eye, that was what I had ascertained while watching him.

The movement of him cutting steak was elegant, so much so that all he needed to do was sit there, and it would be a masterpiece of art.

He was dazzlingly beautiful.

Looking back on the novel, everyone praised the appearance of Duke Shivelom, who was the Emperor’s younger brother, but in the end, none of them could compare to Duke Carlisle’s beauty.

Before Fervin got married, he was by far the Empire’s most outstanding bachelor, and even after his marriage, was still voted as the best man.

Even as a married man, there were many noblewomen who were waiting for him at social gatherings, and it was exactly for the following reason.

Everyone had foreseen that he would divorce the Duchess after their five year contract was up, and then afterwards, Fervin would return to the social world as a bachelor.

As a reader who knew the backstory, I was also only aiming for that moment.

I couldn’t break an agreement between two countries, so for now, I would spend the rest of the remaining year and live quietly, then peacefully accept the divorce in order to stay alive.

But first, I had to at least attempt to live peacefully with my husband if I wanted to spend the rest of the year without any problems.

My plan had already gotten off on the wrong foot from the beginning.

I glanced at him while pondering whether or not to give him a piece of steak.

Would feeding him a piece of steak make his mood get any better?

No, it wouldn’t, after all, weren’t we a couple that had a different kind of relationship compared to other couples?

I glanced at him who was reading the document next to him.

He stuck out his fork, as if to pierce the steak, then did it again.

He stuck out his fork several more times in order to reach the food.

I looked up when my head tingled from his gaze, seeing Fervin staring at me with a strange look.

He was observing me without even knowing that his brilliant platinum hair had fallen down onto his forehead, and when our eyes met, he coughed in embarrassment.

“Ahem.”

His pale green eyes trembled slightly as he turned his head away.

He spoke to me in a voice that sounded like a wounded beast.

“I’m asking you honestly. Just what the hell are you up to?”

“I’m trying to get along with you now.”

“Irwen. It’s already been four years since I’ve been with you. You think I don’t know all about your shallow tricks?”

“A trick? I’m just trying to do my duty that I wasn’t able to do before and cleanly cut off our loose ends after spending the rest of the year peacefully.”

“Duty…duty you say…”

Fervin rubbed his chin languidly.

He seemed to be thinking carefully about something before spitting out in a muffled, low voice.

“Then, are you going to carry out that duty now?”

“What duty…”

He pursed his lips and hesitated for a moment.

You’re the one who’s speaking, so why are you making such a flustered expression?

“Our duty to have a child. After all, the elders in the house have been insisting for years already.”

“A child…you say?”

I tried to hide my embarrassment.

What are you talking about, you’re talking about our duty to bear children?

Of course, the most effective way for Princess Irwen who was from a defeated country to preserve her name would be to give birth to the Duke’s child, the heir to the Carlisle Duchy in order to solidify her position.

But I had no intention of doing that.

Because I couldn’t bear to sleep with someone I didn’t love.

So I had planned to quietly complete the rest of our marriage and divorce as planned, but what? Our duty to bear children?

This was not the Fervin I knew.

In the original story, Irwen and Fervin had both tacitly agreed not to have children.

He let out a dry laugh the moment I clenched my fists under the table.

“Actually, what could I have expected from the woman who said she didn’t want to taint her blood with the blood of the invaders on our first night?”

“…”

“Forget I said anything.”

Fervin got up.

As I tried to follow him and get up too, he waved his hand as he looked at me.

“Don’t mind me, continue your meal.”

“I already stopped eating in the middle since I felt uncomfortable.”

“Just act like you usually do, Irwen. Don’t act like this and do what you’ve never done before.”

Fervin approached me from the front.

It seemed as if I couldn’t overcome my own temper, but when I looked into his eyes, I was embarrassed again.

I was angry, but now I was stammering again.

Why are you doing this?

He growled in a deep voice to me, whose mind was still in chaos.

“Don’t show up in front of me again. Don’t shake my heart.”

He hurriedly turned around and left.

The plate of food, which was not even half eaten, was still steaming.

I sat down and thought as I ate the chicken.

You seem to hate me quite a bit, don’t you?

What the hell did Irwen do to you before to become such an object of hatred?

“Madam, don’t worry too much. The master must have also clearly felt the changes in madam’s appearance.”

Mrs Tilly, who brought me a clean towel, spoke as if she was comforting me.

After I woke up, she had supported me with her warm words and trustworthy demeanour, so I complained to her in a coquettish voice.

“Of course, I know what he’s been through so far is too much. But still, shouldn’t he at least give me a chance? I’ve already put in this much effort, but in the end, all he did was just get angry.”

“Don’t be agitated, the master has already noticed the changes in madam’s personality.”

“…really?”

Mrs Tilly nodded in response to my question.

“He’s just tired of the several years of waiting and patience he’s gone through so it’s hard for him to accept this as the truth.”

[ / / / ]

The next day.

I had tea with Mrs Tilly in the garden which was full of flowers.

“I wish I had spent my time like this earlier, Mrs Tilly.”

“I just wanted to thank you since you take care of me so well, even when you’re busy.”

“Not at all, in fact, I should be more grateful. You were the one who even nursed me when I was sick, taught me about a lot of things, and supported me even when I couldn’t remember everything. Seriously, thank you so much.”

I faced Mrs Tilly whilst enjoying my favourite hot chocolate.

Mrs Tilly smiled meaningfully, her eyes full of the years of wisdom she had lived through.

She had not even touched the luxurious early grey tea that was in front of her.

Although she seemed somewhat wary of me, her gaze toward me was still filled with curiosity.

She was a friendly-looking middle aged woman with gray hair that was sparsely scattered throughout.

She was the second generation of her family to serve the former Duchess, and continued to serve as a housekeeper in the Carlisle Dukedom.

She had come here when she was young, and was now a gentle woman with traces of the years she had experienced etched onto her face.

After having tea time and asking about this and that, the subject flowed on to the cultural festival which would be held next week.

“Ah, you mean the cultural festival that the Marchioness Celestine is holding next week. Wasn’t it originally my turn to hold it?”

“Yes, it was, but madam refused it every year, so the Marchioness Celestine took over instead. It will probably be the same again this year.”

The cultural festival was a kind of party that was organised by the aristocratic wives to show off how cultured they were.

Although it is said that it is a place of cultural exchange that gets rotated around to different people within a certain period of time, it was actually more so about who spent the most money in order show off the best performance.

Many nobles, who seemed to be overflowing with money, invited the best actors or singers to hold a grand feast in their mansion.

However, the performance that was more precious than a performance decorated by the best artists, was a performance that was decorated by the noble ladies themselves.

Although the noble ladies were usually quiet, they would still personally step out on stage and get together with other noble guests while helping their husband’s social standing rise.

Dance, drama, or singing were skills they had all been honing since they young, but fortunately, it was a field in which I was confident in.

No doubt many people would attend if the Duchess Carlisle, who had been inactive from social activities, would personally grace the stage.

I decided to take this opportunity to change my image.

From a princess of a foreign country who was reputed to be an evil woman to an intelligent woman who had already adapted to this place.

I looked directly at Mrs Tilly and declared.

“I’m going to host this cultural festival.”

“Sorry…?”

“I’m going to sing, so first, find the best band to accompany me.”

As a former idol trainee and aspiring singer, I had to show off my skills and show a perfect performance.

Mrs Tilly looked at me in disbelief and bravely opened her mouth.

“Surely we don’t also need to sing the chorus, right madam? If by any chance the key is too uncomfortable to sing, it might be better if we hired several people.”

“But I can still do it on my own. Would you like to hear it?”

In front of Mrs Tilly, who nodded, I tensed my stomach and sang.

I could see servants eavesdropping from the open windows throughout the mansion.

There was even the sound of a window opening on the second floor.

I had only sang a short verse, but Mrs Tilly’s face was full of joy.

“My word, you did really well! Have you perhaps been hiding your talent this whole time?”

“I mean, well…anyways, it was fine, right?”

“It’s not just fine, it was outstanding, madam! It would have been nice if the master could have listened to this with us as well. I can still call him from the study right now…”

“No, it would be better if he heard it on the day of the cultural festival, not now.”

I immediately got up and grabbed Mrs Tilly, who was about to enter the mansion.

I had no intention of singing a song in front of my prickly husband.

He wouldn’t even like it.

The moment I looked at the second floor of the mansion to no avail whilst drinking my tea.

Some sort of large body that was hidden behind the curtain.

The dazzling platinum hair that seemed to have flashed past.


ok but surely she doesn’t think it’s that easy for her to earn his trust ???? like, let’s be fair girlie, you’ve acted like an asshole for four years, and just with a few days, you expect him to act nice ??? bestie that’s like four years of betrayal and waiting the past irwen has put him through give mans a break !!!!!

in this case tho i do sympathise with fervin bc imagine the woman you literally LOVE HIS MF FIRST LOVE has been hating him, verbally abusing him, and has probably pulled one of these i’m going to pretend to love you but backstab you, for FOUR MF YEARS LIKE AHHHH also that one comment she made abt not wanting to mix blood with the invaders like OUCH that must’ve hurt him so bad but i’m looking forward to seeing how their relationship develops!

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IBOMLEW Ch 1 — Becoming the Obsessive Male Lead’s Ex-Wife (II)

After a few days of feeling faint, I barely managed to wake up.

I got up as the dazzling sunlight came in, one hand clasping my messy hair.

This time as well, I was in the same bedroom again, but instead of that man, there were people who appeared to be servants surrounding me.

With their help, I was examined by Doctor Doppari and was diagnosed with, ‘there is nothing wrong with Duchess Carlisle’s body’.

The people next to me breathed a sigh of relief and examined my body once again, but did not approach me recklessly anymore.

They bowed their heads when I looked at them, as if they wouldn’t know what to do if they met my eyes.

“Have you already sent word to the Imperial Palace? When is the master coming?”

“He is on his way right now.”

As I listened to the echo of their voices surrounding me, I tried to organise my thoughts several times.

The man I saw before I fainted earlier called me ‘Irwen’, and the doctor called me ‘Duchess Carlisle’.

No matter which way I looked at it, it became apparent that this wasn’t a dream, nor reality, but a situation within a novel.


After a few days of feeling faint, I barely managed to wake up.

I got up as the dazzling sunlight came in, one hand clasping my messy hair.

This time as well, I was in the same bedroom again, but instead of that man, there were people who appeared to be servants surrounding me.

With their help, I was examined by Doctor Doppari and was diagnosed with, ‘there is nothing wrong with Duchess Carlisle’s body’.

The people next to me breathed a sigh of relief and examined my body once again, but did not approach me recklessly anymore.

They bowed their heads when I looked at them, as if they wouldn’t know what to do if they met my eyes.

“Have you already sent word to the Imperial Palace? When is the master coming?”

“He is on his way right now.”

As I listened to the echo of their voices surrounding me, I tried to organise my thoughts several times.

The man I saw before I fainted earlier called me ‘Irwen’, and the doctor called me ‘Duchess Carlisle’.

No matter which way I looked at it, it became apparent that this wasn’t a dream, nor reality, but a situation within a novel.

I could’ve never imagined this situation.

I, who was just a trainee and struggling hard to become a singer, would suddenly become a character in a story.

The body I possessed was the body of ‘Irwen Lillias’, a villainous wife who appeared at the beginning of a popular romance fantasy novel, ‘Fervin and Stella’, and disappeared when she died.

As a princess of a defeated country, she was the sacrifice that was offered to the Theresia Empire’s imperial family.

After the five year war with the Theresia Empire, the defeated Verma Duchy sent the illegitimate and only daughter of the Grand Duke Verma as a peace offering to the Theresia Empire.

Grand Duke Verma’s surname, ‘Lillias’, and her age, was also only given to her a few years ago, thanks to the push of her half brother who had found her.

However, since she was the only daughter who had the blood of Grand Duke Verma, the Imperial Family of Theresia accepted her as a reconciliation gift and married her to Duke Carlisle.

Fervin Carlisle, a ruthless desperado who pushed the Verma Duchy to the brink of destruction, the Emperor’s right hand man and an influential figure of the empire.

As the marriage between Duke Carlisle and Irwen was pushed forward strongly, everything ended up progressing extremely fast.

In the novel, it is briefly stated that Irwen hated Fervin almost as much as he hated her.

However, in the sense of reconciliation with the Verma Duchy, the couple had to remain married for at least five years.

Their marriage, which had been creaking from the beginning of their marriage, creaked on for four more years.

Of course, news of the extremely valued successor had not been heard, and rumours quickly spread of Irwen who was not fulfilling the minimal duties of a duchess.

It was common for Irwen to lash out at the servants of the household, not make an appearance at any social gatherings, and even send the finest specialties of the Carlisle estate back to the Verma Duchy illegally.

Then one day, when not much of their married life remained.

Duke Carlisle, the Emperor’s right hand who was called the Conqueror, suddenly collapsed while drinking wine in his bedroom.

Then the Duchess, Irwen, was named as the mastermind behind the plot.

Although she protested the injustice, she was still ultimately arrested as the prime suspect soon after that.

The fact that she had illegally robbed the Carlisle estates, offered goods to the Verma Duchy and always slandered her husband, made her into a prime suspect.

The Empire concluded that she had colluded with the Verma Duchy to kill Duke Carlisle and steal his properties.

It was only a matter of time before Irwen Lillias was executed for trying to kill Fervin Carlisle, a relative of the Imperial Family and hero of the Theresia Empire.

Naturally, no one believed her words, as she trembled with injustice.

Even her husband, Duke Carlisle, whom she had a relationship with due to her contractual marriage.

In the end, Irwen was ruined and met her death, while Fervin Carlisle remarried the esteemed daughter of the Count, Stella Bell, who devoted herself and cared for him with the utmost care.

Why did I have to possess Irwen’s body, I resented and resented this fact countless times.

The body of such a foolish evildoer, and even one that was destined to die!

However, since I entered Irwen’s body, I vowed not to live like this.

According to the servants, we had already been married for four years.

So, first off, my goal is to live quietly for the remaining year, divorce, then receive a villa as the alimony payment.

Alright, I’ll just remain as Duke Carlisle’s ex-wife in order to preserve my life.

After taking the first step, the next plan was swiftly made..

My top priority was to urgently figure out the current situation I was in as ‘Irwen’, and make a plan to ensure that I survive.

After much thought, I came to one conclusion.

First, I had to start accumulating virtue, kindness and benevolence and change the gazes of fear of those around me.

At that moment, the sound of the door opening was heard, and a man entered.

Everyone bowed their heads except for me, who was still staring at him.

“Duke.”

“How are you feeling?”

The man came up to me and met my surprised gaze.

A man whose coat was worn in such a hurry that he hadn’t even buttoned it all up yet, and hair that was blowing wildly in the wind.

Dazzling platinum blonde hair, a tall stature, slender body and alluring green eyes.

It was clear that this was Irwen’s husband, and now my husband, Duke Fervin Carlisle.

When I first opened my eyes, was this the man who stayed by my side on the side of the bed?

Still looking at him, I saw Fervin’s face stiffening.

It was evident that he felt uncomfortable with the eye contact we were making.

It was then that I remembered Irwen’s perilous position in the novel.

Wasn’t I a character who eventually died after being suspected of being behind the poisoning case due to my bad relationship with my husband?

I had just barely survived, I didn’t possibly want to die again.

I didn’t want to experience such a horrible feeling again.

So first, it’s important for me to build the notoriety and reputation of ‘a woman who can’t possibly kill her husband’.

As if he could see my calculative thoughts, Fervin averted his eyes, seemingly uncomfortable with my staring.

“Since you seem fine now, I should probably go.”

“Um…”

Without realising it, I grabbed his sleeve and pulled him closer.

The surrounding silent gazes that seemed as if they were watching a horror movie, and Fervin’s cold gaze, as if asking me, ‘What’s wrong with you?’.

Where did the face that had appeared earlier when you opened the door to come in go?

Now all I could see were cold eyes that were facing me, as if I was the enemy.

My heart pounded from his frosty gaze.

“What?”

To him, who had barely responded with a concise reply in his low voice, I opened my mouth with a sense of ‘oh, who cares’.

I had to try and live.

“Thank you, for coming here to see me.”

I gathered my courage and spit out the following words, hearing several people around me fall down in surprise.

The servants started saying things like, ‘How could madam say such a thing…’, and ‘Oh my god, I never would’ve thought to hear such a sentence come out from madam’s lips…’.

Fervin was no exception, as he stood frozen on the spot with an absurd expression on his face.

He looked at me with bewildered eyes, as if I was crazy, his eyes trembling violently.

He opened his mouth slightly, as if to say something, but then closed them.

He then turned around and left the room in a hurry.

[ / / / ]

Fervin arrived at the study and rubbed his face with both hands.

He never imagined that after she fell, he would sneak up to see her at night and whisper to her countless times, hoping for her to wake up.

Even if people change, her change had simply been too big.

He immediately asked Mrs Tilly, who had followed him into the study.

“Did she lose her memory?”

“The doctor said it was too early to make a decision yet, but she is definitely acting as if she was someone else right now. The fact that her personality has changed and become more positive is evidence of that.”

“Why would you change now?”

Fervin bit his lip nervously.

He asked Mrs Tilly, the maid who took care of Irwen from the moment she had collapsed until she woke up, about her condition again.

He wasn’t the only one who was wondering about the Duchess’ changed personality.

Everyone else in the mansion did as well.

Irwen, who always seemed to be shrouded in an angry aura, as if she had a thorn in her body, suddenly became kind, so it was only to be expected.

Besides, she, who had never even dealt with her husband directly before, saw Duke Carlisle and even said ‘Thank you, for coming here to see me’.

Seeing her master lingering around the window, as if he was anxious, Mrs Tilly made a cautious suggestion.

“Maybe madam has finally thought it through and decided to repent? You know the saying, when a person gets sick, they become a different person. In the meantime, she may have grown tired of her resentful and prickly life and may be trying to restore her relationship with you, master.”

“Don’t give me any false hope.”

The light of the sunset coming through the window dyed Fervin’s beautiful face a hue of red.

Thanks to this, he was able to conceal his pounding heart that had caused the blood to involuntarily rush up and stain his face red.

He had fallen in love with her, proposed to her, and started off his married life with a determined mindset, but in the end his heart had hardened due to her coldness.

He thought it had already been frozen solid for four years, and had promised himself that he wouldn’t allow himself to get hurt anymore.

However, it seemed as if a single crack had appeared in his frozen heart.

The heart that had betrayed his rational reasoning and started to beat again.

From the time Irwen had stared blankly at him with those big blue eyes.

Although he had been flustered and wanted to push her away in a panic, it couldn’t be blocked.

As if a chaotic heart had suddenly taken over his whole body, he muttered involuntarily.

“…I’m going crazy.”

[ / / / ]

The next few days were peaceful, but busy.

Although I was resting, I still learned various things about the mansion from Mrs Tilly, the housekeeper, and tried to make a friendly impression with the servants by acquainting myself with them and calling them by their names.

Of course initially, they had been repeatedly surprised and shocked by my changed appearance, but they didn’t shun me like the first time.

I wanted to show Fervin a different side of me too, but didn’t get a chance to these days.

Then, in the evening, after Duke Carlisle had been swarmed by people for a long time.

The kitchen was busily preparing as Duke Carlisle, who usually ate outside with the exception of breakfast, had said he would eat at home today.

It was said that in order to become friends, one must share a meal together, so I decided to have dinner with him.

“Madam.”

A young maid came in with a basket full of freshly picked flowers.

The first day I entered Irwen’s body, I, who had memorised the names of all the maids, stared at her.

So this was the head maid, Mrs Tilly’s niece, Marianne.

As I smiled at her, Marianne avoided my eyes anxiously and hurriedly said what she had to say.

“Dinner is ready to be served. Since the master is here today, dinner will be served in here, as usual.”

“No. Tell them that we’ll eat together.”

“Yes…yes?!”

“What, is it strange for us to eat together?”

“No, that’s not what I meant, but…just that it’s been a long time since the two of you have eaten together. No, actually, it might even be the first time.”

Marianne wrung her hands nervously without realising it.

Although I was worried as well, I got up from my seat and prepared to get dressed first.

I was rummaging through the clothes in my closet as my hand caught on a bright red dress.

Since it was our first dinner together, I concluded that there was nothing wrong with leaving a good impression on him.

I looked at Marianne whilst holding a red V-neck dress.

She was still staring at me blankly.

“Can you help me get dressed?”

“Ah…yes!”

With Marianne’s help, I put on the dress and observed her expressions.

Ever since I had opened my eyes in this place, I had already seen quite a few shocked expressions afterwards, but Marianne had a very confusing expression on her face.

I asked her as gently as possible.

“By any chance, are you afraid of me?”

“No…I’m not. It’s not that, just that madam normally wears a black dress, but today, you chose a different colour…by any chance, madam, if you don’t like us, please don’t express it through your clothes and just tell us directly.”

I took a deep breath as I watched Marianne speak out bravely in the midst of confused expressions.

No matter how many times I said so, the servants were still terrified of my changed appearance.

In the future, I would have no choice but to prove my changes with my actions.

Finally, it was time for me to put on makeup, as I sat down facing the dressing table and let my long black hair hang loose.

Marianne carefully applied the powder.

However, once, twice, three times…it was strange for her to pat so much powder on my face, to the point of applying it ten times.

Furthermore, my eyebrows were reapplied thickly with the charcoal soot ten times as well.

And she might as well have covered my lips with blood instead.

“Why are you applying it until I’m so white?”

“Madam normally wears her makeup like this.”

“And the eyebrows too, I mean, the charcoal soot. I think it’s too dark.”

“This is how you always did it though…”

Marianne’s voice began to tremble, as if she thought I was testing her.

I was horrified with Irwen’s ghastly makeup tastes, which were never described in the novel.

I would rather not wear any makeup at all.

In the end, I removed all my makeup with water mixed with flour.

Meanwhile, Marianne brought the flowers from the basket and held them out to me.

“Madam, please choose flowers for your hair.”

“…flowers?”

I slowly examined the flowers.

These were the many flowers that had bloomed in the garden.

I hesitated for a moment due to the sheer volume of flowers that were all displaying their beauty.

Marianne looked at me and picked up a bright red rose.

“How about I put in a rose?”

“Hmm…that’s good too, but…oh! It’s my favourite flower.”

A lily of the valley placed in the corner caught my eye.

lily of the valley

Lily of the valley, which had a subtle fragrance that suited my tastes exactly, was my favourite flower, ever since I was a child.

Marianne picked up a bunch of lily of the valleys and put them in my hair that was tied half up half down in a ponytail.

My reflection in the mirror seemed to be alright.

At least a bare face was better than that sort of makeup level.

I grabbed the hem of my long dress and went down to the drawing room.

I could hear Marianne muttering strangely about my bare face next to me.

“Should I send word for the master to make sure he properly prepares his heart, or not…”


AHHHHHH I HAD TO PAUSE SEVERAL TIMES WHILE TLING FERVIN’S THOUGHT PROCESS AHSDLFJSD he’s literally the best ml so sweet SDLFKJFD i can’t wait for irwen to start thawing his frozen heart im smiling so hard rn hAHALDSKDF when he said his frozen heart started beating again SDLFKJSDF ISN’T THAT EVERY GIRL’S DREAM ???? BYE he’s so sweet literally best ml

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IBOMLEW Ch 1 — Becoming the Obsessive Male Lead’s Ex-Wife (I)

A woman with black hair that fluttered down to her waist and exquisite blue eyes that shone like stars, was sitting in the centre of the garden.

She was the Duchess Carlisle.

She was beautiful rather than pretty, arrogant rather than docile; she was a goddess who was overflowing with decadent beauty.

Several middle aged aristocrats who were sitting across from each other, couldn’t hide their impatience with their awkward expressions as they sat in front of the woman.

The Carlisle Dukedom, to which they were tied to by blood, was a branch from the imperial family that was founded by Ervin Carlisle, who received the dukedom from the 30th emperor as his youngest prince.

Contrary to the emperor proclaiming that the family would be blessed with fertility, starting from the first duke who only had one son in his old age, the Carlisle Dukedom had barely managed to make it to the 6th generation.

From generation to generation, although the Dukes of Carlisle were all married at an earlier age compared to other nobles, each time a new head would succeed their predecessor, their relatives would still struggle with concerns regarding their successors and giving birth to a child.

This too was the case for the current Duke Carlisle.

They, the blood relatives of the Carlisle household, had just yesterday, had a conversation with Duke Carlisle that in the end, had amounted to nothing.

When they went to meet the Duchess, they suddenly recalled yesterday’s discussion.

The topic of the conversation had been that there was no heir to succeed Duke Carlisle.

And it had been like that for a full four years already.

To the relatives who had questioned him about his heir, or lack thereof, Duke Fervin Carlisle had shot them all with a piercing glare.

“The marriage period, which is an agreement between two countries, is not over yet, but everyone is already so impatient.”

“There are concerns as there hasn’t been any news or signs of an heir during this marriage of four years. If you are not on good terms with your wife, please tell us. Or have you reached the point where you can no longer bear to put up with your wife? If that’s the case…”

“I think you should ask Irwen this, not me. Since it seems as if she’s always avoiding me.”

A shadow of anxiety flashed across Duke Carlisle’s handsome face.

His shiny platinum hair was nervously messed up, and a shadow was cast in his sharp green eyes.

The men all nodded their heads, acting as if they knew how he felt.

It was a well-known fact in the Carlisle family that the Duchess of Carlisle was always anxious, and although she would never take the initiative to meet her husband, would occasionally hurl abusive language from time to time.

There were times when the servants had occasionally said that she would devour her husband with her vicious gaze.

“Who can withstand the Duchess’ fiery temper? We all know it too well. We can file a petition with the Emperor, urging him to allow a divorce and pursue a remarriage with someone else. Since everyone knows that the Carlisle Dukedom’s sons have always been extremely valued, His Majesty would also…”

“A divorce within five years is a diplomatic disrespect. There is still a year left, yet you’re telling me to violate this national treaty?”

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A woman with black hair that fluttered down to her waist and exquisite blue eyes that shone like stars, was sitting in the centre of the garden.

She was the Duchess Carlisle.

She was beautiful rather than pretty, arrogant rather than docile; she was a goddess who was overflowing with decadent beauty.

Several middle aged aristocrats who were sitting across from each other, couldn’t hide their impatience with their awkward expressions as they sat in front of the woman.

The Carlisle Dukedom, to which they were tied to by blood, was a branch from the imperial family that was founded by Ervin Carlisle, who received the dukedom from the 30th emperor as his youngest prince.

Contrary to the emperor proclaiming that the family would be blessed with fertility, starting from the first duke who only had one son in his old age, the Carlisle Dukedom had barely managed to make it to the 6th generation.

From generation to generation, although the Dukes of Carlisle were all married at an earlier age compared to other nobles, each time a new head would succeed their predecessor, their relatives would still struggle with concerns regarding their successors and giving birth to a child.

This too was the case for the current Duke Carlisle.

They, the blood relatives of the Carlisle household, had just yesterday, had a conversation with Duke Carlisle that in the end, had amounted to nothing.

When they went to meet the Duchess, they suddenly recalled yesterday’s discussion.

The topic of the conversation had been that there was no heir to succeed Duke Carlisle.

And it had been like that for a full four years already.

To the relatives who had questioned him about his heir, or lack thereof, Duke Fervin Carlisle had shot them all with a piercing glare.

“The marriage period, which is an agreement between two countries, is not over yet, but everyone is already so impatient.”

“There are concerns as there hasn’t been any news or signs of an heir during this marriage of four years. If you are not on good terms with your wife, please tell us. Or have you reached the point where you can no longer bear to put up with your wife? If that’s the case…”

“I think you should ask Irwen this, not me. Since it seems as if she’s always avoiding me.”

A shadow of anxiety flashed across Duke Carlisle’s handsome face.

His shiny platinum hair was nervously messed up, and a shadow was cast in his sharp green eyes.

The men all nodded their heads, acting as if they knew how he felt.

It was a well-known fact in the Carlisle family that the Duchess of Carlisle was always anxious, and although she would never take the initiative to meet her husband, would occasionally hurl abusive language from time to time.

There were times when the servants had occasionally said that she would devour her husband with her vicious gaze.

“Who can withstand the Duchess’ fiery temper? We all know it too well. We can file a petition with the Emperor, urging him to allow a divorce and pursue a remarriage with someone else. Since everyone knows that the Carlisle Dukedom’s sons have always been extremely valued, His Majesty would also…”

“A divorce within five years is a diplomatic disrespect. There is still a year left, yet you’re telling me to violate this national treaty?”

“But the situation is that you need to see an heir as soon as possible! From generation to generation, the Dukes of Carlisle have rarely seen the birth of a successor after the age of twenty-five, and Your Highness is turning twenty-five this year! Even the astrologers have said that if you don’t have any children by next year, there will be no permanent heirs. Therefore, you must meet a proper duchess and have a child quickly.”

“But I know that I was born to my father when he was forty.”

“However, the former Duke had already made love with several ladies before that…he even made friends. But the Duke continues to lead a life of integrity and abstinence, like a monk…”

The vassals all sighed as they watched Duke Carlisle’s figure.

Everyone in the empire knew about the wild beauty of a beast that was hidden within his neat uniform, so why couldn’t he make full use of it?

Just look at that sharp neckline, the strong and firm muscles that were revealed by his sleeves that were rolled up to his forearms, and the dizzying pectoral muscles that hid underneath the collar that had been folded downwards.

There were hundreds of women who were eager to enter his gaze, yet it was still a work in progress.

Of course, the fact that Duke Carlisle had a wife who stabbed at him like a knife, was also a work in progress.

To put it simply, it was not hard for him to seduce a woman and make a child with her if he really put his mind to it.

However, Duke Carlisle, like always, would respond indifferently to the lectures of his relatives.

“I still have the ability to sire a child. It is just not the right time to welcome a successor yet.”

“But the astrologer…”

“I have already heard it once, I don’t want to hear it anymore, so get out!”

In the end, receiving only Duke Carlisle’s fiery wrath, the men of the Carlisle family left without seeing any results.

And today, the Duchess Carlisle had called them all together.

The Carlisle clansmen all gulped collectively.

The Duchess, who had called them to announce something important, had a different temperament from her usual brutal one.

[ / / / ]

The people only sipped tea for a while.

After a moment of heavy silence, one of the vassals finally spoke up.

“Madam, may I ask why you wanted to see us?”

Irwen Lillias, the Duchess who had married in from a foreign country, nonchalantly turned her gaze away from the teacup and onto the men.

The middle-aged men all trembled at her cold gaze.

‘What sort of orders is she going to give out today?’

Until now, every time the Duchess called for them altogether, the reason for doing so was always clear.

‘Orders to collect and offer gold to the Verma Duchy?’

‘Orders to collect and offer precious jewels to the Verma Duchy?’

‘Orders to collect and offer the specialties of the Carlisle estate to the Verma Duchy?’

Wasn’t she the Duchess who always wanted to give everything to her maternal home, the Verma Duchy? 1

‘Why does His Highness, the Duke, who knows of his wife’s illegal actions, still choose to turn a blind eye to her?’

Just as everyone let out a sigh, Irwen spoke up, as if nothing had happened.

“Please stop offering monthly specialties to the Verma Duchy from now on.”

“…Sorry?”

“I told you to stop sending all the jewels, specialty items, and gold so far, to the Verma Duchy every month. And tell the peasants in particular, that this will never happen again. In the meantime, please forgive me for acting so foolishly in regards to my maternal home.”

The men glanced at each other and communicated with their eyes.

It was extremely good news, but at the same time, it terrified them as well.

‘Why is the Duchess suddenly having such rational thoughts?’

‘Did she finally find out that it’s illegal to pay tribute to the Verma Duchy without going through the normal process?’

‘Did the Duke have a word with her?’

‘No, madam is definitely not the type to listen to others.’

‘Then why did she suddenly make such a normal decision all of a sudden?’

They were all men who were bursting with curiosity, but they still bowed their heads when they met the frosty eyes of the Duchess.

“I will carry out your order.”

“I’ve finished speaking, you may take your leave now.”

Irwen sighed after watching the men dash out.

All the tension drained from her body as she rubbed her stiff neck.

Her disheveled appearance right now contrasted greatly with her charismatic charade earlier.

“I feel refreshed now that I’ve stopped it. I should be able to survive if I stop all the stupid things she did before. “

[ / / / ]

It was not too long ago that I was living an ordinary but tiring life.

In my previous life, it was not an uncommon occurrence for me to faint once or twice due to my irregular meals, non-stop part time jobs and arduous daily routine that continued until dawn.

But this time, it was different.

I felt like I was going to die when I fainted, but when I finally managed to get up, I sensed that something had changed.

The fragrant smell of flowers that tickled the tip of my nose, the luxurious pajamas that I was wearing, and the soft blanket that hugged my body.

It was the first time I had ever seen everything so western-inclined and old fashioned.

I looked around in bewilderment at the splendour that seemed to only be described in the noble mansions of novels.

The moonlight shone through the cracks of the slightly opened curtains, illuminating the room.

Confused, a large bed surrounded by red curtains, a huge blanket covering me, and a man kneeling at the edge of the bed, resting his face on one arm at an angle came into my sight.

I squinted my eyes which were not used to the darkness around me.

His sleeves were rolled up to his forearms, his slender upper body that was revealed by his unbuttoned shirt and his luscious platinum blonde hair that moved regularly with his breathing, looking as if he had fallen asleep.

Full of vigilance, I rushed to the other side of the bed in order to avoid him and covered myself with a duvet.

Everything was confusing to me.

What was it with this western-style bedroom, why did I come here, and who was this man who was sleeping on the same side of the bed as me?

It was then, when I had unconsciously begun trembling in the bed, full of anxiety.

The sound of the man getting up along with a yawn that seemed to be held back sounded from outside of the duvet.

As if he was taking care of a child, the man carefully removed the duvet from my head with his hand.

I closed my eyes and stayed as still as a dead mouse.

After stroking my hair for a while, his heavy voice resounded.

“Just wake up, please…”

There was a mixture of resignation, exasperation, affection, and obsession in the voice that sounded.

There was a tenderness in the hand that had lifted off the blanket and straightened out the pillow, as I started to wonder who the man was, still keeping my eyes tightly closed.

As I trembled with anxiety, all sorts of thoughts rushed through my head.

Judging by the good-looking voice I heard earlier, I could roughly assume that he probably would’ve had a good-looking appearance to match as well.

I closed my eyes and just waited for him to leave.

As I tried to figure out what was going on and what to do when he left, hot lips suddenly landed on my cheek.

I opened my eyes in surprise, my eyes making contact with the man’s.

“Irwen?”

The moment his dazzling cold green eyes, as if shaking, locked onto me.

The moment the name ‘Irwen’ was engraved deeply in my heart.

Heavy anxiety and confusion struck me, as my vision suddenly faded into black.


[1] the korean word is actually 친정, which is a word that refers to the former home of a married woman, and since parental home doesn’t sound quite right, i’ll be referring to it as ‘maternal home’ from now on.


AHHHH the chapter is rlly long so i’ll be splitting chapters in two!

also i’ve read up to about chapter 22 in the raws and let me tell you it get’s really good plus the art is *chefs kiss* !!! ml is super possessive as u can guess from the title so if you like possessive mls this is ur story SDLFKJFD also,,,unfortunately it does not get snu snu scenes /cries in korean age restrictions but the kISS SCENES GET SUPER HOT HEHEHE